Halloween in 1991

Look how cute I was :)

Do you ever.

Do you ever feel that you're always living for someone else, and not yourself? Never wanting to voice your thoughts, your wants, your needs, because you'd fear you'd be deemed selfish? In the end, you screw yourself over and end up really hating yourself. You cry and cry, but never sure why the tears come. How do you say the things you don't know how to say. How?

All you need is love

Hello kids! I am back from Vegas, and out a couple of bucks. haha. I enjoy our adventures and this one definitely goes in the book of awesome adventures. We saw cirque du soleil, The Beatles: Love, which was an amazing performance! We saw great lions, rode rollercoaster, and for the most part, just sat around doing nothing.

Like all great adventures, this one must come to an end. Though I am sure there are plenty more to come! Like the Beatles say, All You Need Is Love.

Tonight we had dinner with couple of friends in Richmond, which made me realize that Chinese food is my worse enemy. Chinese restaurants are usually too oily, too spicy, too much. :( So I went to bed only about 2.5 hour after consuming what can only be described as yumyum oil, and now startling awake at 4am with a mild case of heartburn. I drank some honey water to try to tame the fire inside my stomach. After being awake an hour or so, I am feeling much better. Now I am looking forward to do some shopping, who will join me :)? Perhaps some goodies for Halloween, and a scary costume!

P.S.: I am loving my newest addition of eyeshadow. Muwhahahhahaha.


Who's this loser? It's my favourite loser :)

Sometimes we're forced to grow up even when we're not ready. Sometimes we're forced to change, because our environment requires us to do so in order to survive. Sometimes we end up where we'd never thought we would end up, because it is the best we can do for the people around us. For most of the time, we're much better off than we imagined.

Bad day

Today seem like an eternity of waiting and misfortune. sigh.

All I want for Christmas is..

I know it's a long way till Christmas, but trust me, people are gonna start Christmas shopping soon. The tree will be up in no time. What I want for Christmas this year, is to be healthy. Please Santa, rid them illnesses and grant me a superhuman body!

How to stay warm this winter

It's only mid-october, and the temperature is dropping to zero at nights. SO cold. How will I stay warm this winter.... Perhaps another purchase of awesome coats....:O or some sexy boots that are totally impractical! Oh I am looking forward to Christmas!

Disgusted

I haven't felt this peevish in a while. Fuck. I feel like I am living in a dump. I am overcome by anxiety and disgust. I cannot bear this. I feel sick from the inside out. I have to clean. I have to. I can't even breathe properly right now. I feel nauseous. I can't clea now. It's not logical, not practical, it's sleep time..... Oh man...I'm waking up at 5 am to get rid of this.........................

Blurry days.

I had quite an odd day today. What seemed like a typical Thursday, turns out to be full of random events that made me ponder. I wake up, left for my eye appointment, on the way there, an SUV rams over the stop sign. I wonder if he really didn't see the sign upon the sidewalk. Then as I await impatiently in the clinic, I eavesdrop on the old couple sitting beside me. Funny that older couples in love behave exactly like young lovers. Then a thought came into my head, we learn how to express our emotions at a young age, but as we grow older, we learn to conceal them, why? The doctor puts in special drops to dilate my pupils so he can get a better look inside the windows of my soul. The dilation caused temporary blurry vision. So i decided it was unsafe to drive, I then popped inside metrotown for a small stroll. It was weird how the world was so out of focus. I managed to order some food without having to look at the menu. I sat down and enjoyed a cup of coffee and a nicely grilled warp. This is when I realize how nice it is to sit down, and just relax. Horray. Things are not so blurry anymore. Hope everything checks out and I can get my crisp vision back soon :(